We’re collectively scared
because it suits politicians
and newspaper proprietors
for us to feel that way.
A happy life
does no one in charge
any good,
is what they say.
We’re collectively scared
because it suits politicians
and newspaper proprietors
for us to feel that way.
A happy life
does no one in charge
any good,
is what they say.
What can I say about climate change?
I hope it doesn’t hurt too much,
and I hope I am with the people I love,
when the end comes.
I'm nothing much,
I've never been considered exceptional
by anyone, really.
It only hurts, though,
when I think of the few people
who have thought I was special.
It is interesting
that the pomp and ceremony
of Anzac Day celebrations
has increased in exact relation
to the death of the actual diggers.
Boys will be boys
testing out their prowess
on their female teachers
with clichés of sexism
upholding ideas of misogyny
because they are young
and inexperienced.
What happens when gay
is normal and mainstream?
Will those boys be boys
testing out their prowess
on their male teachers
with clichés of sexual behaviour
upholding uncomfortable ideas
because they are young
and inexperienced?
Will the men handle it
better than the women?
Will the male teachers dismiss it
as boys being boys?
It’s the Golden Rule,
you fool,
you don’t have to like them,
or their kids.
But it is do unto others
as you’d have them do unto you,
then we’re all safe
no matter how we really feel.
Truce, for a good life.
Smile.
Nobody speaks to god these days
Because there are so many gods anyway
And if you think they are all inside of us
That would make quite a fuss.
Nobody speaks to god these days
That’s because he went away
With all the education we all got
We’ve all realised he is not
Nobody speaks to god these days
That’s because we all have a lot to say
So many ideas come into play
And we’re all going to die without him anyway.
Nobody speaks to god these days
Because evil happens, is he looking away?
People die, even those who pray
And if he is omnipotent, he’s a fake.
Can you remember
The happiest moment
Of your life?
The feeling
This is it,
This is delight.
The smell of puppies
Your first chocolate cake
Feelings so right
Breathing fresh air
First love
Success in sight
I made it
I can support myself
I have this life
Presents under the Xmas tree
Driving yourself
Leaving school and being free
A great view
From a tropical island
Flying above the clouds.
Dancing under the stars
Talking all night
Getting high.
Lying on lush grass
Staring at an azure sky
Holding a kite
Can you
Still feel it
Tonight?
I’m not sure I am ready for this
It seems like my youth is behind me,
Under that bridge gurgling,
And while I am not old,
Nobody would think that,
Plenty of life in the old boy yet,
I can no longer, really, say my 30 year plan,
Which is quite a realisation,
Makes you think.
Not that I ever really had a 30 year plan,
But I could have.
The rich look after the rich
The politicians are their bitch
To donations they get hitched
And the public they are stitched.
I wake up with a poem in my head.
My cat rubs his fur about my face,
As soon as I open my eyes,
Soft and firm.
I get up, not quite ready
The early morning light
licks at the edges of the room.
I want to make coffee
And get that poem written down
Before I forget
What I am doing in the dark,
Outside the rain falls
It is melancholy on the roof.
The air is warm,
The coffee is bitter on my lips,
Good bitter,
Like sarcasm,
Or winter rain.
Dot my i’s and cross my t’s.
The day is grey,
Subdued and embracing,
Like a hug from a dear friend.
The light is brittle
I don’t turn on a lamp,
It would only spoilt it.
I’m a misanthrope
But I smile at strangers in the street
I believe that most of the world’s population is a waste of space
But that doesn’t mean I have to act like a disgrace.
A girl stepped in front of me
On Collins Street
Oblivious, on her phone,
She didn’t care about me,
And, I didn’t expect it.
I walked into her
And she stumbled sideways
And dropped her coffee,
She cared then.
She insisted I buy her a new drink
I apologised to her and kept walking
I wasn’t even sure I had to do that much,
But, be generous, I thought, it doesn't cost.
Too gaze upon someone unnoticed
As they have a moment of unguarded joy
Is one of life’s great delights
From where did these ideas of colour come?
When we are all on the spectrum
with every shade represented.
Who decided which colour should be resented?
Something that rhymes
is not a crime
it is what makes the world turn
that we all know,
even if we don't say so
it is a truth
we've known since we were young,
since life begun.
The sax plays
the guitar strums.
the piano tinkles
as only it can.
The triangle
The glockenspiel
Coconut halves
Galloping away.
Ole.
Meanwhile, in America
Author of, 'How to Murder Your Husband',
Charged with murdering her husband
Slow the traffic,
Slow the traffic,
Slow the traffic,
Slow the traffic,
Until the traffic no longer moves,
Never addressing the real problem
Of pedestrians being fools.
Sandy hair, blue eyes
Round face, school boy grace
We travelled New Zealand together
Were sitting next to one another
When it was announced
The king was dead,
I don't think either of us
Knew who he was in our head.
Craig's Hotel, Ballarat
We were choosing room buddies
Your voice came from the back,
When it was asked,
Who'd share with me,
"Me sir." I didn't have to turn
I knew it was you
And a flutter went through me.
School camp, in the dark,
What a lark, what goings on.
You had to battle for my attention
You could cut the tension
Between Craig and me,
And you did, cut through
Instead, and I was yours,
From that moment, it would seem.
Year 11, nearly men
In form assembly, in front of everyone
You said we should be lovers,
You just came out with it,
You wanted it, so should I?
You didn't believe me when I said no.
You do, you said,
You will, you said.
How could you have known?
All those years I'd been in love
with you, I tried not to shake,
I tried not to lose my mind,
Right there in front of you.
You stared at me, through me,
I stared back at you
Everything else just stopped.
A freeze, all faded away,
We both knew, despite denying it
My big, strapping footy player.
"Mr Robertson? Mr G?
"You with us today, or are you
Just making googly eyes at each other?"
That snapped us back to life.
You punched my arm and said,
Under your breath, "You will."
The next day, in the hallway,
All the boys were checking in,
What a din, the smell of testosterone
And the anticipation of success.
What a mess. Muscles and
Long hair, and cheap vinyl
school bags, and books,
I looked at you and said, "Yes."
You smiled that smile that
One day would make you
millions in real estate, tilted you head,
"Good," you said. "I hoped you would."
We were surrounded by boys
And none of them knew,
Lovers became lovers right there
In their view.
You headed off to class,
Just like that. Left me standing there,
Like I had nothing to wear.
Your head reappeared. Smile.
"Don't go home after school."
I must have been dumbfounded
By what I had just agreed to.
"Come on," you said, "Class is on."
And then it was on, like
Donkey Kong, sometimes in bed,
Sometimes standing on our heads.
Athletic and fearless, despite all
The queerness, sometimes soft,
Sometimes brutal, often tender
Romantic, funny, lovely, gentle, rough
The same gender suited us.
Sometimes with snot and shit as the result
Exhausted on the floor, and in pain
Sandy's mother's face cream took a battering,
Crushed velvet lounge suits getting scrubbed down,
Snatching every opportunity
Given to us by the universe,
School holidays, "The olds are
down the beach house, come over. NOW!"
Two years, and then some,
We were queers and nobody knew.
You were Vice Captain of the school,
And I got to fool around with you,
Between footy games for you
Hockey games for me, you watched
Me play, as I did you, and then we'd screw.
Trinity Grammar never had any queer kids
I heard one head master say.
Times were against us, and it was a bust
Our last day, you went away.
I got a girlfriend, and you got a wife,
Three boys you had, I wondered if
They looked like you? I thought I'd
See you again. One day we'd meet up.
"Remember the old days," I'd whisper
In your ear. Out of the blue, see that smile
One more time,
Then one day, unexpectedly, reading
the old boy's school magazine, in my kitchen,
coffee in hand, there you were, In Memoriam,
The words said people were shocked,
I was shocked, standing there alone
my coffee cup slid around my finger, nearly,
Bought me back to the day, catching it,
It didn't say how, I still don't know how.
Poems
Are ideas
I snatch
From the air
As they
Float by,
I don’t know why,
I just always
Have.
I don’t know
Where they
Come from,
And,
If I don’t
Grab them,
I don’t know
Where they go.
There is
Just a moment,
A brief,
Brief moment,
When
I can
Take them
As mine,
Or they
Are gone.
America
was once cool,
and handsome,
and swung its hips.
With Trump,
it fell off the toilet dead,
with the ugly turd of racism
poking from its arse.
He's only hit me once,
But, I said the wrong thing.
Oh yes, there was that other time,
But he'd just lost his job.
No, I wouldn't count that time,
He was drunk.
He loves me,
And he says he won't do it again.
I trust him.
He just gets so frustrated,
Times are tough,
It makes me cry for him.
I’ve got good with the concealer,
I've had a lot of practice, after all.
Maybe we'll have a baby,
That could fix things?
I love him,
What can I say?
The problem with lying,
Even when you are
Excellent at it, like myself,
Is that
Everyone else can’t
Be relied upon
To hold their nerve.
Our time upon this earth is short
Some of us are great,
And some of us are small,
But all of us are great.
Religious types hate us
Because god made us so pretty,
Wealthy,
And happy without guilt.
Post Bowie,
now that he's passed,
there is no longer
any chance of finding
Life on Mars.
You think life is hard
In this 24 hour news cycle
Cynical world
Led by criminal politicians
Facilitating a morally bereft
Corporate world.
Imagine being a meth smoking,
Transgender, lesbian, Muslim, refugee,
Living in poverty,
Just for a minute?
8am, Queen Street,
fittingly – laugh.
This guy,
let me tell you,
what a nice piece of arse,
as they say,
in his white tracky pants,
shall we say,
hi-lighting his "charms,"
first thing in the morning,
at the lights,
waiting for the green man.
Peak hour,
who'd have thought?
God bless
early gym,
I say.
There he was,
"all there,"
if you know what I mean.
Where to look?
It is hard to know,
in times such as these.
You can't just stare,
that isn't polite,
not quite right,
but my eyes
had different ideas,
not really
a surprise.
You should have seen,
"the head on that beer,"
as they say.
And my mind
was thinking,
thoughts of its own,
like me too, and,
I'd willingly
go under that bus
with my tongue out
queers.
People are anaesthetised by their mobile phones
The world passes them by and they don’t notice at all.
On the tram, everybody is glued to their glass screens.
Looking down, mesmerised, living the dream.
What are these Western Values
of which you speak?
I’ve looked for them
Universally across the people
But they change all the time
Depending on those with the purse strings
and those who just complain,
and those who want to drag us back in time
and there is still the steeple
and the constant talk of evil,
despite nobody believing any more.
So, then we’re left with,
Money and footy and shopping,
Wars and those who fight in them
Bigger cars, bigger houses, and social climbing,
And those who are famous we hang off,
While we’re blaming the government for everything we got wrong.
In Western Society
The biggest sin
Is being old.
Or is that cold, or bold, or told, or goaled, or wack?
Or female, or gay, or dumb, or ugly, or black?
The world
Doesn’t want to think
About old men jerking off,
It only wants to think
About young bucks
With pretty cocks
and gorgeous feet.
I can’t care
About Trump
He’s just a cunt
That went bump
Into the world's sensibilities,
Before he gets dumped
Like shit being shunt
As his credibility slumps
And he’s relegated
To the setting sun.
Soon enough
It cannot come.
Laugh,
Those riotous jokes
Irreverent and hilarious,
Broad smile
Happy and disrespectful and funny,
Good times.
All gone.
And then you are gone
And everybody you knew
And everybody they knew
And everybody else
Are gone.
That’s the way it goes
That is the way it ends
For everyone,
Funny to think,
Like infinity,
Blink, blink, …
The rise of the idiot,
Social media is to blame
Every fool now thinks
They have something to say,
And the ability to say it.
And when they don’t like the truth,
They deflect it away,
“That’s fake news.”
Not bright enough
To know when they are schooled.
The stupid are loud,
Aggressive and rude.
The smart are surprised,
Irritated, often bemused.
When conservatives lie and cheat
It is all in the process of getting things done.
When a liberal dupes a conservative
They are “evil, exploitative and sick.”
War, which leads to
Famine, which leads to
Refugees, which leads to
Nationalism, which leads to
Terrorism, which leads to
Conservatism, which leads to
Neoliberalism, which leads to
Corporatision, which leads to
Inequality, which leads to
War…
All the while
Everyone ignores
Global warming.
I count my blessings every day
People love me
I love them the same way.
I've always had food
and money
and somewhere to sleep.
I am smart
and healthy,
I know how to be sweet.
The blue sky
and the green grass
makes me feel complete.
I am content
have a life well spent
In things, I'm still intent.
Homeless.
Can any of us
Understand
The mess
Of that?
What does
The future
Then mean?
Nothing.
That is obscene.
Do any
Of us care,
Who have a future,
About those
Who don’t?
No,
We walk away
Giving thanks
It is not us,
In the lucky country.
What do you think
The future of the world
Looks like,
With a moron
In the Whitehouse,
A criminal
In the Kremlin,
And the Chinese
Wanting to
Take over the world?
The earth
Has always been
More amazing
That the humans
On it,
And yet
The humans
So often think
They are
On what
The earth
depends.
Beyoncé is
A symptom
Of the world’s problems,
As the queen’s
Mindless R&B
Suits her mindless glitterati
More interested in fame and wealth
Than creative health.
She Is designed to make the cash
Rather than further the human race
And she is what happens
When marketing companies
are dictating
what is meant to be good.
On what a lot of woman’s
Understanding should depend,
Is that you are just a hole
To a lot of men
This is a significant
Problem when,
Domestic violence
You’re trying to bring to an end
We all lead useless lives
Using up the world resources
All the time searching for meaning
When there is none to be found
Except for our own self importance
And some people think
The worst thing is
That we descended
From monkeys?
Go figure?
Don’t you hate it
When at the last minute
A hand comes around
The lift door
and stops the process?
I freely admit
I am a lift nazi.
And it drives me to distraction!
‘WAIT AND CATCH THE NEXT LIFT YOU SELFISH BASTARD!”
My inner voice screams
Whenever I see that self-satisfied face,
Sliding into the lift with the rest of us,
As if it has achieved something,
Right there at the last minute, no fucken fuss.
Australia used to be
The land of the fair go
But that's gone now
It drowned
In the sea of self focus.
I only agree
With a fair go for 'we'
If I get more
Than you,
Then it is a fair go
I can get into.
Fear has replaced hope
Because it suits the politicians
For us to all believe
the country is broke,
Then they can give the spoils
To the people
Who pay them
The most.
We are governing
For everyone,
Which is true,
If you understand
'Everyone' is them
And the rich
They are,
Or wanna be.
You got nothing
That's because you are lazy
And you just don't
Try hard enough.
A bad life
Full of strife
Is an inconvenient truth
For the silver spoons
In charge.
Life isn't always fair
And the good don't always win
Sometimes the strong succeed
Not the worthy.
And sometimes it is the corrupt
And you have to suck it up
And proceed.
Karma is just an expression
To make us all feel better.
Americans like racism, and gun violence
But they can’t abide nudity, or blood sausage.
And don’t say toilet, when you mean ‘bathroom’
They might accidentally picture something,
Presumably, who the fuck knows?
Like Americans generally,
A mystery, to us all.
The religious
Want freedoms,
In their heads
It can’t not
be about them,
because they have
god on their side.
You know its
worldwide,
this idea
of god
creating the world,
then 800 million
years later
creating man,
then 200 thousand
years later
God sent his son
to tell man
how it’s done.
Bliss
is a cuddle
and a kiss
close your eyes
hot breath
touch the hair
not a care
the world wouldn’t dare
to stop turning,
couldn't stop turning,
dribble and spit
you know
this is it.
Time doesn’t really heal,
it just allows you to get used to the idea.
It does get better, though,
even if there is that place
that is speechless that they have gone,
that never quite goes away.
But then, you wouldn’t want it
to go completely, anyway.
I am
Apricot jam,
That’s me.
On my face,
On my knees,
Watching the bees,
A feeling of glee.
Jar in my hand
Sticky fingers,
Isn’t it grand.
Wiped on my ears,
Smeared on my cheeks,
Sugary tears
Of joy.
Loved it since
I was a little boy.
Don’t waste time
These are the best years of our lives
I say sublime
One day we’ll look back
And wish we could have stopped time
To where did all of that slide away
Wish we could have another day.
Don’t waste time
We’ll see these were the best years
Of our lives,
One day,
We’ll say
We want more.
I wanted to contact Jesus
they say life is better with him in it.
I tried to find him in bible study,
but it was like a secret I hadn’t been let in on.
I couldn’t find him in the catholic church,
all their priests were defending themselves in court.
He wasn’t to be found in America
God does not help those who help themselves.
I looked amongst the homeless in Rome,
but the Vatican had closed its doors.
I looked amongst the Christians at home,
but they were too busy trying to stop people marrying,
or crying about abortion, with no answers to offer.
except the word of their sweet lord.
I tried to find him when I was old,
but I was tied to a chair and sat in my own urine instead,
and then I was dead.
The day we are all
supposed to give thanks
to all those guys
who charged off to war
and got slaughtered
in a failed invasion
on an obscure Turkish beach
100 years ago
that somehow created
modern Australia.
He told me
That he admired me
For all the things I do,
Just when I felt
I was the laziest
person on earth.
Slow down she called out
As I drove passed in my car
I think she even raised a fist
What did she think I was going to do?
Of what was she so scared?
Or was I just encroaching on her bliss?
I’ve never tried to hold someone from breathing
Cause there is nothing stronger than a dream shared
I’ve never been afraid of my lover thinking
There is love to be found in wants that are paired.
I love you,
Sitting on the floor with your electrical wires
Concentration etched across your face
The latest project you are fascinated with
In your clever hands
And soon you will be done
And you will have a thing where there was no thing before
And you’ll be very pleased
That it works the way it should
You showing me just how,
And I’ll love you even more
Political Correctness
Is the smart people
Telling,
And the dumb people
Listening.
I see the world
As every colour,
And every hue,
That is the world.
To deny that
and you are a fool.
A burqa
Won’t hurt her
What does anyone else
Care anyway?
Strap a turkey
To your head
Point west
With your bed,
Eat wafers with wine
And pretend they are divine,
If that squares you off
With whatever chosen
God today.
Doorways are
the portal to people’s souls,
the gateway to their lives,
the entrance to their hearts,
the access to their world.
Doorways fire the imagination,
entrance the mind
and expand our years,
if only we have the keys
to enter without fear,
with good cheer,
and perhaps
a little dance.
Jazz hands,
Step two, three,
Take a chance.
When you die
you are dead, the end,
for all of time,
it is the most difficult thing
to really understand.
How can you
ever really comprehend,
forever,
when you can't get it
into one thought?
Boy sees boy
Boy sees boy has fine arse
Boy sees boy looking back
Boy smiles
It is that simple.
There is no confusion.
Story told
Nobody else is involved.
An internet connection
is such a distraction
from writing anything good,
writing anything at all.
The latest news,
stumble and fall,
just like that
it takes nothing at all.