AIDS 18/02/2023

So many guys,

I read about more all the time,

30 years later

I'm learning about

the talented, the clever, the great

people who succumbed,

to the great virus of the 80s.

So much so, I want to mention them, the people I have been reading about just lately.

Peter Hujar

Paul Thek

David Wojnarowicz

Charles Ludlam

David Warrilow

Ethel Eichelberger

Huck Snyder

Herbert Tobias

Hugh Steers

Mark Morrisroe

William Gedney

Patrick Angus

Avel De Knight 

George Stavarinos

Cookie Mueller, who looked radiant on her Wedding Day 3 years before she died

Fortunately I am not the first person to tell you that you will never die. You simply lose your body. You will be the same except you won't have to worry about rent or mortgages or fashionable clothes. You will be released from sexual obsessions. You will not have drug addictions. You will not need alcohol. You will not have to worry about cellulite or cigarettes or cancer or AIDS or venereal disease. You will be free - Cookie.

Oh Cookie, if only any of that were true?

You won't be the same, and you will die.

Funny how that much we chose to deny.

We are finite, this is the only chance you get,

the trick is to die happy with no regret.

Not raise some naive hope of eternity,

because that will never come,

not in heaven, not in spirit, 

not in some out of body manifestation,

that's just madness, mental constipation.

Like the belief in God, or super hero's, 

or little green men, coming down from the sky 

some day, to take over the world,

and make us all their slaves, who knows why.

Joy

I see the little kids happily babbling about life as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters, holding everyone up, not a care.

I watch the adults faces watching the little kids patiently as the little kids happily babble about life as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters, holding them up, not a care.

It’s funny, I think, we all used to be just like those little kids happily babbling about life as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters, holding everyone up, not a care.

Such precious little lives, happily babbling about life, no idea what is in store for them, we all think back to that, as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters holding us all up, not a care.

We’d all swap our grown up lives for some of that lost innocents, even just for a minute, we all think, as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters holding us all up, not a care.

Jesus Christ

When I say, 

he is everything that is wrong with the world today,

I don't mean to say that this time is unique.

I think history speaks for itself,

and that humans have never really given a shit

about each other,

as much as they have about power.

Come What May

Wishes are just child's play, 

don't wish for things, you'll see... 

‘cause guess what, they are just dreams,

and dreams are sublime, magic and time, but

wishes ARE just child's play,

come what may.

We found out didn't we,

as we dreamt our lives away,

where did the time go?

So fast. What have we got to show?

Hopes and dreams.

Wishes are just child’s play,

come what may.

Aspirational

The ‘lesser’ are

discriminated against 

throughout their lives

by most of us, when you look at it,

closely.

The ‘greater’ 

get everything they want,

and more,

and it is never questioned.

It is celebrated.

We all hope we might catch it.

Island

You can never live your life alone,

find your tribe,

never let them go.

Glint

"There was so much that I didn't do."

My gravestone will glint in the sun

with that message, I am afraid, 

if grave stones can glint in the sun at all,

- the only time my life will shine in the light -

speaking to eternity of my failings.