I'm lazy
I am so lazy
I am really lazy
I am so fucken lazy
I have always been so lazy
I'm the family member who is lazy
I’ve been told I am lazy since I was young
I remember my dad’s words telling me I was lazy
I can still feel my failures because I’ve always been lazy
It's true, I have spent my entire life thinking that I am the lazy one
So many guys,
I read about more all the time,
30 years later
I'm learning about
the talented, the clever, the great
people who succumbed,
to the great virus of the 80s.
So much so, I want to mention them, the people I have been reading about just lately.
Peter Hujar
Paul Thek
David Wojnarowicz
Charles Ludlam
David Warrilow
Ethel Eichelberger
Huck Snyder
Herbert Tobias
Cookie Mueller, who looked radiant on her Wedding Day 3 years before she died
Fortunately I am not the first person to tell you that you will never die. You simply lose your body. You will be the same except you won't have to worry about rent or mortgages or fashionable clothes. You will be released from sexual obsessions. You will not have drug addictions. You will not need alcohol. You will not have to worry about cellulite or cigarettes or cancer or AIDS or venereal disease. You will be free - Cookie.
Oh Cookie, if only any of that were true?
You won't be the same, and you will die.
Funny how that much we chose to deny.
We are finite, this is the only chance you get,
the trick is to die happy with no regret.
Not raise some naive hop of eternity,
because that will never come,
not in heaven, not in spirit,
not in some out of body manifestation,
that's just madness, mental constipation.
Like the belief in God, or super hero's,
or little green men, coming down from the sky
some day, to take over the world,
and make us all their slaves, who knows why.
I see the little kids happily babbling about life as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters, holding everyone up, not a care.
I watch the adults faces watching the little kids patiently as the little kids happily babble about life as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters, holding them up, not a care.
It’s funny, I think, we all used to be just like those little kids happily babbling about life as they try to get through the supermarket doors with their scooters, holding everyone up, not a care.
When I say,
he is everything that is wrong with the world today,
I don't mean to say that this time is unique.
I think history speaks for itself,
and that humans have never really given a shit
about each other,
as much as they have about power.
